I’ve learned to bury hurt and regret so I can survive days in my head.
I’ve learned to bury tears cause sometimes letting them fall doesn’t change anything and you just give up your “strong woman” card.
I’ve learned to bury my deepest emotions for you cause I’m not sure you can handle their gravity and enormity.
I’ve learned to bury my thoughts so they never become words that put me at odds with people I love.
I’ve learned to bury my doubts and fears because what if I actually can do it???
I’ve learned to bury so many secrets because I would want mine buried too.
I’ve learned to bury relationships cause I would rather be alone than surround myself with people who aren’t helping my growth.
“We think about bravery as this noble virtue, where someone is supposed to keep their heads high and not let anything affect them. Someone who flies when we seem to be walking. It’s not like that. It’s like crawling. You don’t feel strong, you never do. But you just don’t want to give up.”
The above statement really speaks to me because I know all too well about this aspect of bravery. There are those days you just want to curl up into a ball because life and everything about it seem too overwhelming to deal with. It could be financial challenges, relationship drama, ill health, anything! No one is above problems and I think it is pretty amazing how you could have absolutely no strength or zeal to keep going but somehow, you still get up and keep moving.
To be honest, that’s how I have gotten where I am now. With my music, with my writing, with my personal growth as a human being, I just never stop pushing. I get frustrated, tired and sometimes I will admit I just stop trying for a time but only to take a break from the struggle and reevaluate how to deal with whatever it is. I always get back up again. I have to. I need to.
Like Timi Dakolo said to a contestant on The Voice Nigeria’s season 2, the man who fails is the man who doesn’t try again after a seeming failure. If you always get back up again, eventually you will succeed at whatever it is. It is the failure to keep trying to succeed that is true failure indeed.
Hope this inspires someone out there not to give up. I’m rooting for you!
P.s This post is inspired by “Failure” which you should check out when you can xx
To my ideal reader:
I know you have so many questions and I know you often feel lost. But God has a plan for you; open your heart to Him and let Him show you.
I know sometimes you feel like a child but then there are all these pressures to grow up. You can grow up without growing old. Laugh and live. Work hard and stay focused. It will all fall into place. (P.s if you are a creative, feel free to stay in touch with your inner child. A poet I know says that is a good thing)
I know you have big dreams and you sometimes wonder if it is possible that they ever come true. Yes it is possible. Nothing is impossible.
I know you worry about the future. And you want to make your parents proud and make an impact in this world before you die. Don’t worry! I say we take it a day at a time, a person at a time. We can change the world by loving people, being positive and doing whatever we can to help the people around us, no matter how little.
We gon’ be alright! – Kendrick Lamar 😜